The waiver is the secret

I should be better than who I am
Between the knowledge and no sense
I should be of me my best friend
And not someone who just pretend
The future has been in my hands
When I could build here in my land
Without escaping to that west
So full of promises so bad
My thoughts while I wander ’round 
Say I am oh almost bound 
Life has become a bother 
And to play I’m not allowed 
Nothing more to discover 
No reason to feel proud 
May be it’s just obsession now
I am only a point in the crowd 
The waiver is the secret 
She said going in and out 
But she remains so eager 
Of life she seeds her ground 
So on a swing I feel I am
Sometimes I regret my sad past
But I should chose a new present
And not to marry this sadness
But contradiction is my lane
First I am glad then cut my veins
I am both logic and insane
No possibility to explain
My thoughts while I wander ’round 
Say I am oh almost bound 
Life has become a bother 
And to play I’m not allowed 
Nothing more to discover 
No reason to feel proud 
May be it’s just obsession now 
I am only a point in the crowd 
The waiver is the secret 
She said going in and out 
But she remains so eager 
Of life she seeds her ground